Thursday, August 22, 2013

I've been a bully to myself

One thing I have come to realize lately is that I’ve been really mean to myself. I’ve been in a funk and instead of focusing on the numerous good things about myself; I’ve been focusing on the bad. I keep thinking about how much I hate my stomach or how awful my skin has been looking. I eat my feelings and then feel like shit. It's a cycle. Why all of a sudden after finally realizing my self love and respecting myself and the thoughts I have about my body have I done a complete 180? Easy answer... I have been feeling like a failure. This isn’t me.. this isn’t who I am or what I support. I preach the opposite! Why don’t I focus on the fact that I’ve lost 50 lbs and have come a long way? Why am I not focusing on the fact that I am giving and that my smile is contagious? Or the fact that I inspire others to start their own journeys? Or the fact that I've got rockin' legs and a chest most woman pay for!? I shouldn't be focusing on the fact that my stomach and inner thighs jiggle.. I have so many other great physical qualities. Plus I can one up all of that. I am a real, honest and good person. I needed this realization to make me think “what the heck have I been doing?!” I’ve since been working on my thoughts and positive attitude. Ive been trying to think positively and am being open minded. I am challenging myself. Yes, I know I am not where I want to be but I’m a hell of a lot further than where I was.. both physically and mentally.

I am taking steps to correct this.


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